Saturday, 28 April 2012

Holly's Inquest / Signs of the Times

My friend Holly's family and her circle of friends have been awaiting this; the Inquest verdict.
Here is a link to a piece from this week's Salisbury Journal.

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In Salisbury, a bunch of plain printed black and white signs have popped up. They say, simply;



MONEY IS DEBT

ILLUMINATI OWN YOU


Some had handwritten additions.

One said: 'We Know'

and one said: 'Paul Daniels is my Father'

Eris needs more lerts.

Thursday, 26 April 2012

o.O

I think I'm a bit better.

Maybe not...

Habbo. You can never leave.



Saturday, 7 April 2012

McShane and O'Ryan


Gods help me, I woke up at Quarter-past-Five this morning, from an... odd dream; ~ I and my husband have been watching a LOT of Lovejoy lately, and the theme-tune keeps playing in our heads, earwormery, so... 


This morning I had the tune playing in my head in my sleep, which triggered a segment of dream that got me so... Um... 'roused, that I woke up... Lovejoy had all his clothes on, but he was making extremely lewd pelvic thrusts.

*facepalm*
I'm not sure whether it was the embarrassment of his naughty dancing, or the shock of him unexpectedly having hip-length hair that woke me, but I've been sufficiently disturbed or perturbed, to blog about it.
... and post a few too many illustrative photographs.

I'm just glad to have a new fantasy-man with no painful emotions attached to him, and no insane hope, or worse, plan, to 'meet someone like him' - He's no Severus Snape - but he indulges my visual needs. *sigh, mope*

Maybe he could have been
Severus Snape after all...
Hmm... what was I going to say, apart from the above? I forget... I may remember, soon... It's Ten-to-Eight right now, and I need more caffeine to think with.

I've met my Fantasy Man, and it nearly killed me... They can all stay in the realm of fiction from now on!
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Indulgences?
Ohhh I remember what I wanted to say - I am NOT pleased by our Dear Majesty's Government's Plot to monitor digital communiques in the UK. Boo, Hiss. 

Cardinal O'Ryan in Scotland suggesting all Christians should wear a Cross at all times, etc... Statements from him and the Pope;  Christians 'should be free to act as their conscience dictates/in accordance with their beliefs' - Oh goody... That's straight-forward enough sanction to the average nutjob to do the nutjobbery well - isn't it nice having someone to tell you what to do? Mummy? Daddy? Teacher? Boss? Pope? The Little Voices that say KILL THE QUEERS? *coughs* How many Christians who feel discriminated against do it unto others? Arrrrrrgh. The little voices tell me, perhaps, Christians marking themselves out might actually be a useful warning. Thanks, Cardinal O'Ryan!

I am not anti-Christian, as such, but I am against religious groups inciting hatred, whatever the religious group is. Humans are quite disappointing, as a species. The potential we have is untapped - we're drugged on the Valium of Television, the Amphetamine of Consumerism, and scared witless by those that want to play Whack-a-Mole with any heads that start to raise.


God, impart Thy strength;
And in strength, power to suffer;
And to suffer for the truth;
And in the truth, all light;
And in light, purity;
And in purity, love;
And in love, God;
And in God, all goodness.




I'm anti-Hate, simply. It's hard when it's our own minds getting all twisted.

AYE, STAY IN YOUR CAGE, YOU DIVVIE!!!
It took me an hour to write this drek? Oh well... Mmmm, it must be time to put Lovejoy on again...


Tuesday, 3 April 2012

"Meeting Mr. Charmer Hurts"



Meeting Mr. Charmer Hurts; - 
You SweetHeart, are the Tiger I cannot Hold,
and Meeting Mister Charmer Hurts, 
with your weapons of eyes and words, 
and your armour against the world.
 
No one can hurt you if they're swooning, 
hit by your poison-darts, sweetest deathstroke 
your sharpest treason, your claws on bleeding souls.

No one would hurt you, when you're winning, 
warring brave against paper-cut-outs,
fighting hard over chaff and dross.

Meeting Mister Charmer Hurts, 
with his weapons of eyes and words, 
his armoury of amour's style and 
armour against the world.

Because no one would hurt you while you think 
you're winning, there's no way you could ever lose.
I think I felt it, when you tore off my butterfly-wings,

I think I felt it when you thought fondly of me, 
I thought so many, stupid things, 
all the things that cannot be...

Meeting Mister Charmer Hurts, 
with his weapons of eyes and words, 
his armoury of amour's style and 
armour against the world.

The Wine that burnt my Gullet,
got me so Drunk, I could not see,
The Sabbat I was attending, was never meant for me,

The Tree with the Poisoned Apples,
grew in a Desecrated Church,
Guzzle my fill of Cider, Birch-whip me, Set me Free...

Fading dreams don't turn to nightmares, 
Dashed hope's shards erode in the caress of sands of time, 
soft water beneath bridges passes, reflects wishing-stars still, in the sky.

Meeting Mister Charmer Hurts, 
with his weapons of eyes and words, 
his armoury of amour's style and 
armour against the world.

Meeting Mister Charmer Hurts.

Monday, 16 January 2012

Hooray for Pharmacology/Limerence = Pooooooo

Well, last Friday I got my G.P. to increase my dosage
of antidepressants, so far it seems to be doing the trick. 

I've got a lot more motivation for domestic work, 
and I'm less sleepy. Since Thursday, I've been more 
over L.O. than I ever expected. Life's looking good, 
and not just because of the fake high of 'falling in love'. 

Friday, 13 January 2012

"Playing Favourites"

- Playing Favourites -

Will the next one be pretty? 
Or the worst ugly monster? 
Will the next really care, 
if you happened to die?

Would the next give a toss, 
or keep all-night vigils, 
would they serve up, 
for your sustenance, 
their flesh and their soul?

The next might be a demon, 
no sense of affection, 
pure possession desired 
and no remorse for deeds done or planned. 

The next might do anything, living the dream, 
taking what they want, and giving nothing back - 
I know the thoughts of the next one, 
a hypothetical new favourite, 
because I have lived with her inside of me. 

I have lived with a ravening demoness, 
truth is, she's just my desire to be desired, 
but her quarry, her target, her victim... 
should beware his next favourite, 
and the next, and the next...

- NB - This is art, not confession of murder plots, compris vous? My 'Victim' is safe from me. These are not the 'droids you are looking for. 

Tuesday, 20 December 2011

"ForEver-Home"

Dreamt your heart
was my For-Ever Home,
had a place in your affections, 
meant much to me, much more to me,
you just had occasional erections,
and erratic directions, 
for an obedient pet, 
that eventually 
you left outside.

"Back Where We First Met"

Would you speak to me,
if I dared tell you... I still feel? 
Things you wished silent 
still whimper. 

No sunshine-warm cuddles, 
no mistletoe kisses, 
nothing, nothing, nothing, 
for you, hello is enough. 

No dread of rejection, 
we solved that riddle, 
but dread of desire, 
and dread of your indifference.

Friday, 16 December 2011

"Covenant"

I remember the details,
crystal-clear, of our contract, 
and I remember, razor-sharp, 
each moment, day and night. 

I grovelled for scraps from 
the plate at your table, 
dry crumbs and crusts 
a banquet to the 
beggar-woman, starved.

Fool, she is, 
weeding her garden, 
hoping next spring, 
for lilies to grow. 

Friday, 18 November 2011

Lurgy/Dear Diary...

Almost better, now - chest infection clearing; this is good.

I guess, if I can't spend an eternity writing to Old LO, I'd better start blogging a lot more. Sometimes it's easy, but other days... Maybe it's an Autie thing, but some days, finding ANY words is difficult. Finding the right words is a work for the good days ~ on the bad days, an approximation will just have to do.

Wednesday, 16 November 2011

Sick as a Parrot.

I've got a really nasty chest infection...
I feel absolutely lousy.
 
I'm stressing over having misplaced a software disc,
and I'm having trouble thinking at all.
Actually DOING things? Hahahaha!
 
My temp. on Sat. night was 38.8C,
and I had the uncontrollable violent shakes.
Mon. night it was somewhere over 39.3C
(The electronic thermometer just says 'Hi'(gh) after that),
and I felt *better* then, than when it was 38.8?
Weird.
 
Pass me the Leper-Bell, will you?
Thanks.
 
*tinkles*

Sunday, 30 October 2011

"Cups"

I know of a Hoarde,
laid out in the sunshine,
in a vast marsh, in mist-rush
and bird-waden wandering;

I know of this Marsh-Mass,
laid out in the sun,
shining and blinding,
seekers to find ~

Wet ragmen and jugglers
all gaze from the pathways,
logs lain over
the grasp of the mud ~

no boatmen amongst them?
No great Corrach sailor?
Just watch the
light flicker, distanced.

My blood boils
with fire, the shaft,
the Sun spears me,
each droplet blazes

in glory, gold on gold,
silver in silver,
Let me tell of the powers
of these patens and cups...

I know of a Hoarde,
lain out, set by moonlight,
a supper for spirit
and succour by what you sup,

a treasure unheeded,
though forever it's needed,
each comes forth in
the night with sheets wide.

recieve recieve,
not driven by grief,
but recieve, recieve
the free flowing river,

bare branches, writhe, Willows,
stark seeing of truths needing,
a touch of the lips
seals silence, not deceit.

Simple symbols, I was buried in,
to speak in allegory,
you know the truth
behind the words,

and all men become Sailors,
to tread their path towards me,
I am the end of
the rainbow, shot from the sea.

Step onto the Bridge,
search behind all the stars,
Step into the breach,
cowardice take flight,

and bravery come forward,
to speak each mortal piece,
or die whining, cowering,
afraid to raise your eyes -

how would
you have it?

You are the One
that knows your mind -

be your own friend,
your own rock,
your own fool and
your own guide.
~~~~~~~~
I speak of a Bronze blade,
and a hilt of carved amber,
a goblet of silver,
knobbed about by pretty pearls,

I murmur and whisper
over oatcakes, Beloved,
and bless the Barley,
good fishing, good hunting,

take the dagger to Chapel,
the dish proffered will
take the world,
gives forth worlds - !

Strike out with your staff,
magic wanderer, marsh wonderer,
dance in the shallows
and swim for your life -

take the cup, take the cup,
sieze the sword firmly
and stab me to own me,

break the pearls from me,
flake all the gilt from me,
let pure water flow
instead of ill blood.

My humour is manifold,
like shepherded perfection -
a meadow is made by
wise sight of the flood -

just a gate here, a dyke there,
make the wilderness perfect,
but whose design
do you work to, my love?

Tuesday, 11 October 2011

Whine!

Last night/this morn, we had to format my laptop.
 
Due to my lassitude regarding backups,
which should be as routine as menstruating,
I have lost a lot of data. I am trying to be happy
that I've lost many photographs of Old Limerent Object.
They were very, very pretty, but bad for my health.
I'd not looked at them for a long while, but, still...
They took a long time to collect.
I knew I should have got another USB mem. stick, just for them...
Never mind, it's not like they're wedding-photos...
Just a pathetic creepy collection. So pretty...
 
*sigh*

Friday, 23 September 2011

Rest In Peace, Holly.


Holly died Friday Morning,
the 9th September, 2011,
at home, in her sleep.
Buried today, 23rd Sept. 2011.

 Holly Williams ~ Funeral Poem
 by Morgan Fyfe-Williams,
 16th Sept. 2011.

Thursday, 1 September 2011

Pfft...

Emotions more settled these days, still haunted by fantasies, whose only worth is as art, inspiration, poetry... I've tried taking a notebook to bed, to write the words that come to me as I drift toward sleep, but... I tend to drift into sleep without writing anything down. I guess bothering to write these things is the first step in commitment to earning a few Bardic stripes.

I rarely write with standard rhyme, and to the beat of my different drum...

Saturday, 16 July 2011

Future Updates =)

Soon, I'm going to be adding some extra stand-alone pages to my blog.

Mythologies of My Past - The odd little tale of how I almost convinced myself that I was an alien... Not such an unusual belief amongst Asperger's kids... I 'was' a Dragon. Looooong story, which I'll share.

Little Whinging - My page for my grumbles about everything from never being able to find a spoon, to the corruption of the powerful, to philosophising about life itself being naturally an unfair game...

Favourite Prayers - things that help me see the good in good, and gently guide by the lights I see.

Funny Things - Humour and anecdotes. Eris might come into it, with her wiffle-stick.

Magic, Religion & Spiritual Guff-n-Stuff - All my mystic waffle in one big glob?

My Artwork - Pieces from the past, and future... Laying out plans as I go - Portfolio mixed with Notebook.

Crazy How? - About my mental health...

The 1005 Project - An ill-concieved bastard child of an infatuation... A poetic and artistic magnus opus in the making ;)

Links - to sites I find useful and/or interesting, or simply amusing.

About Morgan - A bit about myself, and links to my other web-presences, ie; Facebook...

x M

Sunday, 10 July 2011

Three Holes In The Ground!

Well, well, well...

Turns out my beloved friend Z is the victim of slander, and I'm too darn gullible. Thank goodness I and Z were able to sort it out.

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Limerence recovery progress is good - it had been retarded by encounters with the chappie at the eye of this teacup shitstorm. Found this blog - Falling in Limerence.

Biology is a bitch enough - dodgy psychology too makes it all even messier. =/

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Kitty is curled up with a David Eddings book. =)

Sunday, 3 July 2011

"Fragments"

"Fragments"

As I lay me down to sleep,
I cling to dreams that I keep ~
poison-pot boiler, coney stew
and bitterness weeping ~
better rid of this compulsion
steeping my life
in worry and strife,
trouble breweth as the storm?

Saturday, 2 July 2011

Erratic Emotions, Mad World...

10/7/11 All's Well With Z. Excuse the language, I'm a wee bit ticked off! So... I've been banned from the Londis 'for being a weirdo', I've had the bad news that someone I thought was one of my very best friends has been laughing at me for months, and I've dyed my hair Raspberry colour, had a tattoo, and helped a mate get her throat checked out at the hospital.

Saturday, 28 May 2011

Tweaked me Blog.

I'm now using the 'jump' / read more link. Wahey.

Kitteh says hi. =)

Sunday, 27 February 2011

Fulfilling a Request

I have been asked to post a picture of my wand,
now that I have finished making it.

Tuesday, 8 February 2011

First thoughts for Piece for Spring Equinox at Stonehenge (2011)

First thoughts for Piece for Spring Equinox at Stonehenge (2011)

Beloved Ones,
Here and Now

"Did I Tell You About His Eyes?"

Did I Tell You
About His Eyes?
That would Sparkle,
and Wickedly Shine?

Or of his mouth,
twisting, smiling?

Wry as a Raven,
Holds Court by his Lord's side,
Proud-Standing Drummer,
I was In Stead of your Lady,
our last Beer-Goggling Night.

Did I Tell You About His Hands?
Or the hairs upon his thighs?

Violet Prose for an Indigo Man,
Ink Black and Shining,
Dark Chocolate Iris,
Anthracite Lily,
Dearest of Friends.

Did I Tell You About His Eyes?
They once sparkled with blessings divine.
How did I think this man was mine?...

?

...Let Me Tell You About His Eyes...